about nathan :)

My parents named me after a prophet in a religion they subscribed to; a religion which I was never very interested in.

It is hard to say how that has or has not affected me.

When I was young, I thought God was a voice in my head. They said to talk to God, and I took it a little literally. God was in my subconscious, the never-ending conversation in my head. Decades later, I see maybe this wasn't a misperception.

It is hard to say whether or not they are disappointed that I became more interested in Buddhism.

I know (some) French.

I feel this was probably also somehow a little disappointing, in a way.

They named me after a prophet, but I don't think they ever expected me to have much to say. They didn't expect me to have a voice from the other side. Eyes that peer and pierce. They never knew quite what they had created. I don't want it to seem like I grew up feeling disappointing. It was more like misunderstood. The feeling of having a gift that no one wanted.

I'm creating this site because I am tired of feeling lost in the sea of social media. Of somehow feeling constantly exposed and at the same time irrelevant, unwanted, drowning, lost. I'm tired of the chase. And tired of feeling like I don't have a voice.

I would like to create a place for myself. A home of sorts. And to release fear.

I don't know very much about making websites, but that's fine. Nothing ever had to be perfect. I just hope to express myself as best I can with what I have, and I know that will only grow. If you've found this place, I hope it has something for you. Thanks for giving it time.

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